It’s been awhile since I wrote. I guess I didn’t really need to tell you that. There’s a lot of little reasons why and, I think, one big one.
I have one post in me. One important thing to say, and I don’t really know how to put it into words.
I’m doing good.
That’s the thing.
But it’s a lot bigger than that. I feel like I’ve made it to the other side. I finally feel like myself again. Except for I don’t feel like myself at all. I feel changed.
I don’t know exactly when or how it happened. It didn’t happen overnight. But sometime over the last couple months I let go. I let go of a bit of shame I had been holding onto since Ruby was born.
A part of me is afraid to put that in writing. What if it isn’t really true? How can I be sure?
Of course I can’t be sure. But right now. I feel good.